Pixie Cut: My thoughts and personal rebellion against the patriarchy

Hello all! 

I wanted to start this series to share my pixie growth journey. I had been wanting to make the chop for a long time and finally did it last weekend. 

And lo, the locks were cut:

Cutting my hair was a significant move for me. I have been exploring feminism lately and wanted to "stick it to the patriarchy" and learn about myself in the process. Maybe I over think things but I tend to have hair disasters if I don't. I knew this would be a huge change for me and I vowed to myself that even if it wasn't what I thought I wanted initially, I would be open to the journey. 

At first, I'll admit, I was in shock. I didn't hate it, but I didn't love it either. I had read so many blog posts about women who were so empowered by their haircut, so liberated. I didn't feel that. I felt like me, but with a distinct lack of hair. 

After some soul searching and talks with hubs, I came to the conclusion that I am still me. I still make the same facial expressions to make him laugh and I'm still the young, struggling professional that I was prior to my haircut. Cutting my hair hasn't made me wiser or more interesting but I am finding new facets to myself that may not have been discovered had I not taken a chance on a new look. 

As women, we are told we have to look a certain way to be pretty or attractive. I'm finding that this doesn't have to be true. We define our own beauty. We define our own worth. Having hair (or not having hair) doesn't contribute to who we are underneath. 

So maybe cutting my hair was freeing in a sense. Not immediately, but eventually. I would encourage you to try it if you're curious. It's ok to be gradual, it's ok to be brave. It's been interesting seeing my face in new ways. I like my face and its funny to think I used to hide it behind my hair. I'm looking forward to trying out new things as it grows and changes. 

I hope this is helpful and semi-insightful. I guess the gist of this post is "Hair is hair" as my mom always told me. Let's be brave and try the things we really want to without fearing what society thinks is "beautiful."

Let me know your thoughts! 

- Camella